unanswered questions.... why do i repeatedly get hurt? why is it so hard for me to admit my faults? why is it so hard for me to improve on the areas in my life that need work? why do friends turn their backs on those they call their friends? what makes a friendship go wrong? why can't things be nondramatic and simple? why does it bother me so much? how can you say one thing and do the opposite a few months later? where should i be? should i change jobs? why can't people say things to your face rather than behind your back? why is it so hard to carry on a conversation that's not just one sided with the occasional "yeah, no, i dunno, good..." yes no answers? why is it so hard to stay focused on God? why does everything else around you seem like it's all on you to handle even though you know for a fact it's God's burden, not your own? why does it feel like every thing is going great then something happens and you feel like you are back where you previously started? why when you have a fully capable God do you still try to solve things on your own? why is it so hard to be content with where you are, what you are doing, and who you are with(or lack thereof)? (contentment is a state of heart, not a state of affairs) why does it seem like others around you are progressing in different directions in life while you feel you are at a standstill? why can't girls just turn off their emotions? why can't i just be filled with joy and not worry bout these things? why can't i sleep!?!? *~God, you know my thoughts, you know my heart, you know the answers (that i don't know) to these questions...Your will be done and help me to be okay with the outcome. Phili. 4:6-7 | 
